This past semester has been the hardest time I can remember in my life. I am WORN OUT. I am so UNMOTIVATED. I can't do it much longer. I am gone to clinical for 31 hours each week. On my days home I play with Kyson, and do homework frantically while he naps. I also try to clean the bathrooms, pick up after Kyson, go grocery shopping, plan and prepare meals, and occasionally shower.
Clark is amazing and has told me that I'm not to do any laundry, dusting or vaccuming until I graduate...and he's been good on his word. I haven't touched any of those things since January. He is saving me...and I'm so grateful to him!
It's also that depressing time of year when the weather is yucky and there are no fun things to look forward to. I sleep 8-9 hours a night, wake up still feeling tired. I go to bed at 8:30 at night.
To illustrate my point, I will give you a glimpse of my conversation with Clark the other night.
It's dinner time...
Katie: I have so much to do, I just don't know how I'm going to get it all done!!!!
Later on when Clark gets home from his basket ball game at 8:00 and finds me curled up in a recliner with a non-school related book.
Clark: What are you doing Kate??? Shouldn't you be studying?? I thought you had a lot to do!
Katie: I know, I know, I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
This is not an isolated event. It has been happening ALL THE TIME! I have so much to do, yet can't get pumped up to do it! It will be a miracle if I graduate!
On a lighter note...I passed my oral thesis defense and my last standardized patient exam yesterday!!! So the only thing that will keep me from graduating now is if I don't complete my clinical hours or if I don't keep up with my weekly online assignments.
If I could draw a self portrait of myself....this is what it would look like!
Only 9 more weeks...I'm crawling...and I emphasize CRAWLING towards the finish line. Wish me luck!
